Author Archives: mummyH

7 years on

It’s been 7 years today. Wow. How time flies. He’s married again and they have a baby girl (thanks insta-stalking). It still hurts. Although now I have a whole load of different emotions going on. Shame. Rage. Guilt. Sadness. Pain. … Continue reading

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Relapse?

Written 27th November 2018, not published until now. This time of the year always seems hard. Christmas is coming and there’s the stress of that with presents and family stuff. There’s the end of the year blues where you are … Continue reading

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Coming off AD’s

So….it’s been a long time since I wrote¬† last. I’ve been on the citalopram all this time, and have decided it’s time to come off. Went to see my doctor who thought it would be good to taper down to … Continue reading

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Day 7

So today is day 7 of taking the Citalopram. First day was horrible, super dry mouth – was guzzling water every couple of minutes, and very bad heartburn – felt like I was pregnant again! Thankfully that went away by … Continue reading

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Losing myself…..and beginning the road to recovery

So since I last wrote I’ve been up, down, up, down and very down.¬† I felt like I had completely lost myself and there was no way back. So alone and lonely and horrible. Soo tired and mentally exhausted. Cue … Continue reading

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Let me forget

I don’t want to remember…..and he sure as hell isn’t letting me forget. It’s that anniversary time again….yesterday was 4 years since I cheated. Feeling weird. I cannot believe it has been that long, and yet it still seems just … Continue reading

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Missing out

I always feel like I’m missing out on things.   I missed out on a lot of things when I was young because my parents couldn’t afford things. I missed out on doing an OE. I missed out on having … Continue reading

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