So H is now 5 months old. Got her next lot of immunisations tomorrow, and I’ve also bitten the bullet and made myself a doctors appointment. Feeling way too crap all the time now so I know there’s definately something wrong. So angry all the time and so frustrated. This should be the best time of my life and I should be enjoying it so much, but I’m just so annoyed all the time! And feeling like I don’t want to get out of bed in the morning because it’s just going to be a repeat of the day before.
At least DH has a part time job now at pak n save, not good wages,but hey at least it pays some of the bills.
Still can’t get H to sleep in the day time which is driving me insane. The only place she falls asleep is on me either after a feed, or else if i’ve been rocking her for like 40 minutes! Then if i decide to try and put her in her bed she wakes up as soon as she’s in there and I can’t get her to go back to sleep. Feel like such a failure,and that there’s something I’m doing wrong.
She’s started rolling over all the time now, at first it was just front to back but now its back to front, and all day long. It’s so hard trying to keep her entertained while she’s not sleeping that sometimes i just feel like popping her on the boob all day so I get some peace and quiet and i can watch a movie or read a book.
But at the same time she’s so damn cute. It’s frustrating. One minute I will be so annoyed at her and then the next wonder how i’m getting so mad because I love her to bits.Gah. Why is this so hard?